Dear Dad, You can never be My Father

6 and a half years before my dad passed away, the Spirit of the Lord reminded me to forget him and depend on God alone. I had left home after my graduation to meet the Heavenly Father face to face. Yet, I was spiritually dependant on my dad who was miles away.My dad was my rock. He never spoke to me about anything else but Jesus. It was Jesus, Jesus, Jesus all the time. Not in a "he's bugging the crap outta me" way. His entry point into conversations with Jesus was always about my lifestyle in Christ and pleasing God alone.I loved my dad, he was laser focused in everything he did. He always kept himself busy, mostly with the Word of God. If not the Bible, it would be tailoring, which he picked up as a hobby from a then illegal tenant living in the church premise. Illegal tenant you ask? That's another story.Dad was an inspiration for my Brother and I, as we watched him daily maintain high standards in Christ, inside and outside the house. He was a free man. Never irked about any situation, except when someone incorrectly represented God. Phew! That would get his nerve. He hated going against God's Word, be it anyone, a child or a Pastor. Not the person, the incorrect interpretation. He would get down and share his point across to those who incorrectly handled the Word. He stayed humble in the process. His passion for the Word was always encouraging for others around him. He loved Jesus!There's a lot I can write on my dad's influence in my life and my reason to keep coming back to Jesus every time I strayed. But, the hero is always the Father. The Wonderful One, The Almighty God, Mighty Counsellor, Loving Friend, and every good thing in my life. More than I could ever ask or think!Watching my dad live for Jesus, and the double standards in my own life caused me to move away from him to get myself right. I wanted to know Jesus closely.Though I left my father's house, physically. I did not leave him spiritually, to depend on God alone. The Spirit of God would always remind me of my dad's words when I went astray, specially, "Be right in the sight of God". Eventually, after being smacked around spiritually, mentally, emotionally and physically in life away from home, I cracked. The Spirit of God wanted me to forget my fathers house, even though all of us believed in Jesus alone.It intrigued me initially, but when I turned to God crying, asking Him to open my eyes to the Bible, everything changed. God began to reveal much more than I ever expected. My dad's diligence and laser focus was missing in me concerning Him. As I grew deeper in revelation, I stopped calling him for every critical situation 6.5 years onwards before his exit from earth to meet his sweetheart - Jesus! The Father in Heaven was leading me to trust in Him alone for ALL things. I understood that dad can only help me as long as he is alive. He can help me only if God helps him first. Dad was pointing me to the source of all his strength. So I can rely on Jesus every day. Not him or any human being.Jesus was leading me into trusting in Him alone for food, clothing, shelter, career, marriage, etc. I never had to ask anything material or earthly from God. Just Him, more of Him in my life.Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith? Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed? (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things. But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof. (Matthew 6:30-34)Dear reader, I urge you to call out to Jesus directly. What He can do, no one on earth can ever do. Jesus loves you in ways we can never imagine. His love is real. He is a living God. He meets you where you are. All you need is to call out to Him. Just say, "Jesus, I want to know you, please come into my heart." Do it sincerely, every day, and He will come to you.Jesus came to me in my darkest hours in life. He still lifts me up when I am down. Your depression, loneliness, inadequacies, etc. can all be solved by Him alone. When God flows through His Spirit, He brings freedom. Everlasting freedom. So we can live with Him for life everlasting.Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. (2 Corinthians 3:17)He is the Everlasting Father!